I think we can all agree that 2017 was a year. I'm not even going to touch the political trash fire, nor the environmental trash fire, that was 2017. I'm not a political analyst, and I'm also not interested in attracting trolls. So instead, this list is going to be selfishly about me. Isn't that why we blog? To write about ourselves, even if other people don't really care about what we say? That's probably another conversation for my therapist, not my blog. Anyways--the year in review.
Although I may complain (a lot) about how awful pregnancy is, the fact that I was able to conceive a baby this year was an unmistakable high point for me and my family. I've struggled with fertility issues in the past, including experiencing multiple miscarriages, and I was almost ready to concede that I just wouldn't be having any more children when the test came back positive. True to form, this pregnancy has been awful--more awful than my first, that's for sure--but as of today I'm comfortably in my third trimester. Sure, there's the threat of preeclampsia and early delivery, but our little girl is finally at the point where she can make an early appearance safely so I'm not as stressed out about the prospect as I once was.
My professional life was a bit of a roller coaster this year. I started out the year in a contract position that I hated, and have ended the year with a company that is more than I could have ever dreamed of. I really, truly love working for Punchcard Systems. My colleagues are great, my bosses have been a dream--especially with the unpredictableness of this pregnancy--and the project that I get to work on are quite neat. I am so thankful that I found them.
On the entrepreneurial front, this year has shaped up to be quite different than I expected it to be! In January, I created goals for the number of clients I wanted to have, and those fell by the wayside once I became pregnant. Instead I've been focusing on the creative side of my work, with my Casetify store growing leaps and bounds once I started paying proper attention to it. I've worked hard at creating other sources of revenue, like enrolling in affiliate programs with companies that I truly love so that I can make a little bit of money while sharing the products I would have shared already. The shift was needed, and welcomed with open arms. i'm excited to see how these other channels grow in 2018!
I also rebranded both my personal site (hi!) and my business site, Wonderland Media, and in the process rediscovered my love of blogging. I'm a writer at heart, so being able to share my words with people, even if it's just my mom and the two friends who read this, makes me happy. And that's what matters, right?
Wine. It's my favourite thing, and I miss it.
I've known for a while that I love wine. First, it was the classy way to get drunk; then, it was an enjoyable drinking experience. But once I dove head first into the technicalities of wine--geography, varietals, flavour profiles--I realized that I really love wine. Tasting it, reading about it, talking about it, learning the history; it's a passion that took a few years to unravel and understand, but I'm so glad that I kept pursuing it until I understood what it meant to me. And I really, really can't wait to taste it again. 80 days until full term, y'all.
No year is complete without the bad to balance the good. I try not to focus on it (as much as my anxiety will allow, at least), but there's no denying it's existence.
That questionable job
Unfortunately, the worst thing that happened this year was that incredibly suspect job I started the year with. While some of the time it was great, I worked for men that felt comfortable making sexist jokes on the regular, and I was constantly treated as a secretary. My opinions generally didn't matter, and frequently my direct boss would lose his temper and yell at me. Like a few times a week. When I finally stood my ground, and stood up for myself, I was immediately fired. I've never felt comfortable talking about it, mostly because I've been conditioned to believe that it was probably my fault anyways. i know with all of my heart that I didn't bring it on, and he was just a jerk, but I still don't like airing dirty laundry. Maybe I should have kicked up a fuss, but I didn't, and I've come to terms with it. And learned from it, because fuck if any other superior will ever do that to me again!
This awful pregnancy
It's a gift, I know. I am incredibly blessed and fortunate to have been able to conceive this child, and to still be carrying it (mostly) successfully 7 months later. But this pregnancy has been fraught with issues, and it's been both mentally and physically exhausting. From extreme morning sickness for the first 4 months, to leaking waters, to preeclampsia being thisfar away from an official diagnosis, I'm entirely over pregnancy and would like it to be over soonish thankyouverymuch. I'm tired of blood tests, and peeing into cups, and having doctors look at me with sympathy as they say "there's nothing we can do yet, but it'll probably get worse and then we can help".
We sold the condo! But now we have to move dec 31st, an autobiography
I'm not going to go into a ton of details, mostly because I'm sick of talking about it, but at the beginning of December my condo building was sold to a developer. They take possession in early 2018, which means that in the span of 3 weeks we went from not having to move, to having to move in a very short time frame.
This is uncategorized because it's both good and bad; it's shitty moving when you're almost 8 months pregnant, because it means that my (amazing!) family has to step in and pick up the slack for me. It also means packing like mad immediately following Christmas, and then trying to get everything unpacked in 2 days before both my husband and I have to go back to work.
But it's also a good thing, because we had outgrown the condo and needed more space anyways. We decided to rent a townhouse for a while rather than purchasing another property, and I'm relieved that I won't have to worry about condo boards or special assessments or the pressures of ownership for a while. Not only will we have a yard (!) now, we'll also have access to a fantastic fitness facility that includes a huge pool, and we're right across the street from a fantastic new public library that I know we'll visit a ton.
So that was 2017! It's been a jumble of good and bad, and I'm ready to start fresh in 2018.